a lil unwell
was supposed to study for my physio quiz and practical for tomorrow but my head's a lil heavy. kinda unwell today, mainly because i didn't sleep well yesterday, was tossing n turning thinking bout stuffs. it's not really unnecessary stuffs, because it has something to do with my future. my decision will change everything. and i will have till june to give my answer. should i study here for another year? doing placements? and get a pr in aussie? or should i fly back to msia after i graduate and work there permanently?
i really love brissie. will certainly be on top of the world if i can work in aussie. but.. without my bf here, my life will not be whole. n yes, my major frustration is not having my bf here in aussie with me. this is really absurd for those ppl who knows me. ppl who knows me will certainly think i was joking. i tot i can cope in brissie alone too. but i was wrong. everywhere i go, watever i do, watever i see, i think of him.
don't get me wrong, i will definitely finish my degree here, just unsure where should i do/ go next. he's the only missing puzzle in my life. i can't believe that i actually miss him this dearly when we're just apart for merely a month. i tot by keeping myself busy, working like crazy and doing consistent studying can make me think of him less.. n yes, it did help.. a lil. weekends are the most torturing days ever. we used to go market together, sometimes bake, and from time to time, we'll go n discover something new in other suburbs in brissie. so much fun n etc. n now, he's not here anymore, my weekends are pretty dull, watching the tv most of the time and GAH! playing tetris!=-='' * i have friends to go out with, but they have their own commitments and stuffs, so wouldn't want to interfere with their plans and so, i only have me, myself and i to go out & to do stuffs with, which is quite boring. so i rather to be in my small lil cozy room.
fuh~ tat's all for now.. i'm gonna get some rest now.. toodles~
i really love brissie. will certainly be on top of the world if i can work in aussie. but.. without my bf here, my life will not be whole. n yes, my major frustration is not having my bf here in aussie with me. this is really absurd for those ppl who knows me. ppl who knows me will certainly think i was joking. i tot i can cope in brissie alone too. but i was wrong. everywhere i go, watever i do, watever i see, i think of him.
don't get me wrong, i will definitely finish my degree here, just unsure where should i do/ go next. he's the only missing puzzle in my life. i can't believe that i actually miss him this dearly when we're just apart for merely a month. i tot by keeping myself busy, working like crazy and doing consistent studying can make me think of him less.. n yes, it did help.. a lil. weekends are the most torturing days ever. we used to go market together, sometimes bake, and from time to time, we'll go n discover something new in other suburbs in brissie. so much fun n etc. n now, he's not here anymore, my weekends are pretty dull, watching the tv most of the time and GAH! playing tetris!=-='' * i have friends to go out with, but they have their own commitments and stuffs, so wouldn't want to interfere with their plans and so, i only have me, myself and i to go out & to do stuffs with, which is quite boring. so i rather to be in my small lil cozy room.
fuh~ tat's all for now.. i'm gonna get some rest now.. toodles~
5 comments:
*hugs*
im here if you need someone k?:(
woman.
It's never an easy decision to make. I think almost all of us who studied overseas without our significant other had to go through this phase. Whatever decision you make, I hope the both of you will be happy..after all, that's the most important thing:D *hugs*
woman: hehe :P *hugs back*
kelly: yea... i get wat u mean. :) thanx anywayz ya? *hugs*
"memories"
to have it or or not to have it.
Well, it's a tough choice to make, really, if you can, u'd wanna stay in aussie of course, but then again, the missing puzzle.
dun let it bother u much tho'. the time will come when u have to make the decision. :)
v, u also a missing piece in my life lor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u better come i tell u!!!!! come la!! stay here free mia :) food, we can cook ma!! flight ? got air asia ma!! no more excuses kay!??! =-=
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